i havent posted in ages. and i apologise.
but you see, i am just so busy. softball nationals, training every week, 3 tests every week, going barker carnival and celebrating yi hui''s birthday with her so i have to push forward everything so that i have time to study and do my homework. and iso is so behind and i have so many things to remember that i forget them even before i write them down
why am i even blogging? because i figured that if i didnt, my blog woulf die and i'd become very demoralised which will cause me to fail in everything i do and grow up with no career, house and money.

oh, did i mention that i am in serious shortage of money? and i need to buy christies and yi hui's present. and barker tickets which my grandmother actually bought but gave them away -.-
and my hunger craves for food. i eat like siao now a days to make up for the loss of the canteen no longer selling the ci ci jelly which i had learnt to love.
and i have really painful blisters on my right hand.i have one huge blister that burst on my palm. and the dead skin dangling there got ripped off when we were doing sliding in softball. its really really painful and its so deep. and i have two more blisters on my thumb. one of them has burst. how on earth did i get blisters when i was wearing my batting gloves?

so many worries, problems, difficulties. but life goes on. because i dont see the point of worrying even though i obviously am. because its all just a part of life, a part of living life. so why should i care?
good question, because i still do.

IM BACK! and depressed.
because school starts tomorrow. and im worrying about my xiao shuo, my xiao shuo peer evaluation, my ISO where nothing has been done and we are very behind time, softball tomorrow, the chinese test on thurs and the homework which i was too lazy to complete.
oh and did i mention that im worried that i may grow up having no career, house, bankrupt and living on the streets?
why do i even think of these things
and i only managed to get 3 hours of sleep last night. i came back at around 2am and i slept until 5. then i couldnt sleep anymore because of the horrible heat and humidity, jet lag, worrying about the above things and worrying about not being able to sleep.
and i may have to run my 2.5 tomorrow, take a softball test and a theory one.
and i probably missed more than 7 trainings, 3 friendly matches and all the other tests. and SRC carnival b div.
and im worried that because of my long absence, i wont be able to get into the team for nationals.

thats all the things that im depressed about. which means that other than theses things i have absolutely no reason to be depressed. yay.

HELLO(:
im in san fransisco now. stop over on the way to alaska.
yupp, see even when im overseas i still blog. ok, im crapping.
this is going to be a really short post considering the fact that im sitting in a hotel lounge, listening to my ipod and using the hotek computer and drinking a can of lemon-lime soda(mist)
BYEBYE

HELLO.
i shall be overseas from tomorrow till the 23rd. so i MIGHT not be posting.
but please dont leave my poor little tag board so alone.
i have faith in you, colette.
<3 the nail polished cucumber

WHATEVER. no, im not being rude to my mother. its the new drink thats just a "wow". or at least the company hopes so. i bought it today and i looked at the list of ingredients and immediately knew what it contained. it was apple tea. not really one of my favourites.the thing about this drink is that many people want to buy it, but it doesnt give the satisfaction that normal drinks do simply because it not what you like to drink or feel like drinking. it could be...well... anything! i personally dont think this new drink will be the next coca cola, but it is an innovative idea that might end up like bubble tea. But who knows? it could earn big bucks.
big bucks remind me of big buckteeth. lol.

my left hand is tanner than my right. i think its really funny
today i made so many mistakes that i fear i only have 3 lives left. that is if every 2 mistakes were 1 live and i were a cat.
and im not in love with dried mangoes anymore. im getting sick of them. oh well, ill find a new love to accompany my stomach acids.

colette is the most frequent tagger of the...like, MONTH
and its not because she tags a lot. it becasue no one else does.
my sister made the most wonderful peach cupcakes. YUMM. ive been eating dreid mangoes like siao. im going to get cancer next time. heh. but who cares? ill prbably get skin cancer too from the sun.
i cant go for the dec church camp! this is so horrible. nicole's going to freak. i really really want to go for it.
all becasue of horrible holidays. POOEY.
and in june i am missing the following things:
1)planet shakers concert
2) i missed ihope
3)barker carnival
4)SEVEN trainings
5) a lot of other stuff that i couldnt be bothered to remember when i knew that i couldnt make it.
not all are because of my holiday. but still.
i hate missing things. esp when all my friends are going without me. jeanne, col and glen should know

argh, my draft 1 xiao shuo and my draft 2 xiao shuo are almost the same
but i dunno how to change it because everytime i change it i can only change like a few words here and a few sentences there.other than that, its exactly the same. no major changes. i think im going to fail this

great singapore sale(:
its not very great though, at least for me.
my friendster is dead): oh well, i dont really care anyway

i love the passion fruit juice with aloe vera and pearls at cool passion! its so nice. i love the aloe vera. and i love the sotong head on a stick at old chang kee. yummy! i sound so greedy. LOL

got these from diana's blog. hahaha

Your EQ is 133

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

i think that im just slightly crazy.
i love throwing my shoes into the air after i take them off. like today at softball and i had changed from shoes to boots, i threw my shoes in the air and angelina thought that i was just slightly off. and then when i came back from dinner tonight, i took off my shoes and threw them in the air, followed by my socks. why am i even blogging about this? i must have nothing better to do. which is true since that doing homework isnt better than this.
wont it be so cool if people who were tired of life pretended to be drunk when the police was testing if they were drunk driving? purposely sabo themselves. hahaha. who knows, i may end up trying that some day. lol
nicole still has no idea that:
1) me and soph threw a popcorn seed at her head during potc3
2)me, col, glenda and eleanor prank called her
3)who eleanor is

my sister is baking like crazy. luckily im not a fan of cupcakes if not id be really really fat by now. and i still cant get over the fact that im missing SEVEN softball trainings. my coach threathened me and said that if my skill deproves after i come back, ill be out of the team. which is a sad thing. but meanwhile, i am trying to comfort myself. which i do a lot. because most people dont think that these things are worth comforting.

i almost finished all my homework. ALMOST. but what ive done so far is all either half done or done really crappily. im in such a slacking mood that i feel like im attending a funeral when i force myself to sit in front of my desk and do my homework. i hate forcing myself to do work. it fells so....cruel. which it OBVIOUSLY is.

colette is crapping on my tagboard. unlike most people, i welcome crap, spam and other nonsense. what's the point of not allowing it when i do it myself. ok, i dont crap on tagboards but i love crapping on msn. ask yi hui. and most of the time, i feel like im talking to myself.

when i say random stuff, they arent always random. they just SEEM random because you have no idea what i was thinking about before i said it. but if you knew, it would all link together and not be random at all. our thoughts always seems to link together. i dont think that it's even possible to truely be random.